snowed in this xmas

We're snowed in and loving it! I love snow and we have lots of it this xmas.
Here are some pics:

our back door..can't even get out!

our mailbox

front yard

Here's a little video of ZuZu out in the snow. She was excited but also wanted to get back into the warm house ASAP

We are all still missing Starbuck very very much, especially during this holiday season. He loved the snow so much. Here are some pics and a video from last winder:

running around the yard

sb and zz

Look at that face!

after all the play in the snow, resting with his dawg mobibi

happy holidays everyone! stay safe, keep warm and cuddle lots with your loved ones during this special time.


how does your dog food rate?

thank you

We would like to say thank you for all the messages we got back regarding Starbuck's passing. We miss him so much. There are some days I feel like he is still here and in disbelief about the last few months but then reality sets in pretty quick. Its been up and down and mainly trying to keep busy.

ZuZu is holding up ok. She is depressed as well. We can tell as she sleeps a lot more and isn't as interested in playing with her ball as she used to be. My heart aches when I see moments of when she forgets he's no longer here. We just had our first snowfall and I know when she was out playing in the yard she was looking for her BFF to chase around. We've been paying a lot of extra attention to her and taking her out for long walks and giving her lots of yummy food to eat (we're glad she hasn't lost her appetite).

Anyway, we are are handling it and just trying to take it day by day.  

This is a picture I took the night Starbuck passed. It might seem odd that I took a picture that night but it was beautiful and I felt like it was a message that he was in peace and I wanted to remember it

Here is a pic of ZuZu, just because she's our angel. She's all snuggled up in her new spot these days beside me on the couch.

Here is a pic of the flowers my sister brought for us to his private ceremony/memorial. 

She may or may not realize it but these are actually SB's favorite flowers (we always draw him with these flowers in our comic).  Speaking of flowers, thank you to the Jung family for sending the beautiful bouquet and the card - it was very touching.

we carry your heart (we carry it in our hearts)

Some people spend a lifetime without ever experiencing that moment of finding their soul mate. We’ve been fortunate to experience it more than once. The first was when we met each other. The second was when Starbuck and ZuZu came into our lives.

We don’t really know how to properly express in our own words how much Starbuck meant to us as there are so many memories, so many reasons why we love him so. He’s our baby and we are devastated for the loss. So, we’d like to share this poem that we find closely describes how deeply Dave, ZuZu and I love Starbuck.

I Carry Your Heart With Me, by E. E. Cummings
(changed the words "I" and "my" below to "we" and "our", etc)

We carry your heart with us (we carry it in our hearts)
we are never without it (anywhere
we go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only us is your doing, my darling)

We fear no fate (for you are our fate, my sweet) we want
no world (for beautiful you are our world, our true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
we carry your heart (we carry it in our hearts)

Starbuck passed on Wednesday December 3rd after a brave and courageous fight with a horrible cancer called hemangiosarcoma, presenting in his liver. The oncologist gave him a few days or weeks but he fought for 3 months to the day of his diagnosis. We call him our miracle dog, not only for fighting the cancer for as long as he did but also because he touched the hearts of everyone he met throughout his lifetime.

We love you Starbuck, forever in our hearts, we carry your heart (we carry it in our hearts).

picture of me, zuzu, starbuck and daddy

sleeping beauty and a new haircut

SB hasn't been feeling so great these last few days. However, tonight he had a good meal and soon after fell into a sleep coma. I love watching him sleep, so peaceful. He was dreaming when I took this photo as he started barking and growling. I think he was dreaming of that squirrel he chased in the yard a few days ago. I wasn't happy about that as it may have triggered the last episode he had but at least in that moment he had fun doing it.

ZZ got a haircut this like?


we're doing ok...

It feels like its been a while since my last post. Time is just flying by and a part of me would just like it to move a bit slower -- esp if that means more time with Starbuck.

Starbuck is doing ok. We are happy that for a period of time, SB was episode free (for about 13 days). But he had another episode that started on Monday which was very different in that it was a slow build up of various symptoms to a point where he wasn't eating or sleeping and was very pale, weak and depressed. It came to a climax yesterday and our doctor came to see him. We got new remedies to try out and thankfully it seems to be working. We're feeding him chicken broth now as he doesn't like any of his food except his treats (of course). He loves his chicken broth and I guess I never thought of feeding him soup but what a great idea as its easy to go down, warm and easy on his system.

ZuZu is doing ok too. I think the stress is getting to her as she seems to know when SB isn't doing so well. She is loving the new food we are giving her though and still tries to cheer us all up with the funny things she does.

Here are some pics for those of you who haven't seen our babes in a while:

teehee! Starbuck and ZuZu are famous!

Starbuck: "Excuse me mommy, pls stop taking pics and let me lie down or give me a treat"

Mom: "Does anyone want a treat?"

ZuZu: "Yah Yah Yah Yah Yah!"

All snuggled ZZ in there anywhere?

Generally, D and I are doing ok. There is a lot of other stuff going on that I haven't blogged about but I suppose its just life and stuff we just try and get though. There were some low points but we remind each other we have to be thankful and stay positive. To cheer me up, D surprised me today with tickets to SYTYCD Canada!! I thought he was joking but its for real. I'm a big fan and know I'm going to just geek out that night -- teehee!
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